the secret.
my mom got me this movie called the secret. ive been avoiding having to watch it for over a year now and honestly she lectures me every time i had to tell her i hadn't gotten to it yet. she said she honestly has thought about it everyday since she read the book for the first time. it just so happened that today was the first day of school when she reminded me once again. its been the longest day ever and it finally sunk in that i have one year left of being a 'kid' in school, one year away from my family and boyfriend and pets, one year closer to being forced into a career i wasnt sure i really loved. you could imagine that at this point, id try anything. so i gave 'the secret' a watch.
i have to tell you, it was awesome. i feel incredibly motivated right now. sure, i started off in complete doubt and disbelief in this corny movie and the exaggerated positivity that all of these 'secret believers' displayed. if you know me at all im no bouncy peppy person for the most part. but really, after finishing the movie, i really really understood that these negative feelings i have had about sarasota, about my future in this career, about not being able to wake up in the mornings, about not being able to get my diet and weight under control, and about not getting the best work i can get for my portfolio are all me thinking and even focusing on all of the things I dont want. and all of these little self prescriptions i give myself as punishments are not helping at all. i learned that i really need to sit down and really think of what i am really thankful for, and stop focusing on what i dont want to happen or what deadlines im convinced i wont be able to make on time i have to really sit down and create a list of the things i want, i have to really look at what makes me happy, either to achieve or have. i have to really close my eyes and visualize how bad i want these things, or better yet, that theyve already happened to me. the universe/god/whatever you believe always has ways of making things happen, even if its not right away. i realized how important our mental energy really was. i dont want to ruin it for you, i just really encourage that everyone watch or read this, no matter how big or how small your problems are. i really think anyone could benefit from it. its gotten me excited to start the year, thats for sure.
