this room is a jail cell

at least it feels like it lately. it really does. i havent left this place at all, unless it was to get my meal of the day. (totally unhealthy) to make things worse, jared hasnt been here, so the whole place feels totally empty and quiet. AND i cant ever get away from the fact that i have work to do since my computer is always glaring at me, even when im in bed asleep. i wish seth was here. or fran or stan or richard. i need company.

i dont even know why im writing this. basically, i'm all rested, and being wide awake in this room is just depressing or maybe just boring at best. i've been doing gic homework though. and by work i mean tracing the world map so that i can put my mythical creatures into place according to where they supposedly lived. lex was just over for a bit and we discussed how it feels entirely unnecessary to be doing projects like this when everyone already has their portfolios printed, except me of course. still though, it does really feel unimportant to the bigger scheme of things.

as for the 51 days left before graduation, uuh... shit. it gets closer and closer and i cant believe it. i did realize one thing though. i really wouldn't be pissed if i didn't get a good job, or even a job at all within these next few weeks before i graduated. i realized that what would piss me off, is if people like kiem vu come to me bragging about the offers they got.

i. dont. care.

im really sick of people being competitive, we're all going different directions anyway. i don't think any of us are going after the exact same jobs in this department anyway. im just kind of tired of life at this point. i need a new outlook, a new mood. usually, i would rearrange my furniture at a point like this, but i have too much due tomorrow to even get myself in that kind of a mess. plus my bed is far too heavy. maybe later.

UPDATE: just found out printmaking crit is this friday. this puts a lovely spin on things. :/