and still my portfolio is not done. its just something i continue to put off. im really not even caring that i havent submitted to a single company either, which is just really bad. i just dont even see the need if i know i dont want to work here, eventhough it does make sense that we should get 'practice'. i dno. im just not feeling it, and its really bad.
on the good side, i went running yesterday and im about to go again a bit later and it already made me feel pretty awesome. i made myself do 50 crunches on that stupid ab machine though, and now i feel like someone was punching me in the stomach while i was sleeping, but its good. its a constant reminder that those muscles exist, and need to be worked on.
also, felicia is selling her bike and i secretly hope ryan doesnt buy it, eventhough i think he is, because the more i think about it the more i want to just have a bike to ride around and run errands and do whatever. it would be sweet. especially now since lex has hers back. i just dont know where i'd keep it. prolly on the porch.
anyway, for today this is what i have planned:
-run
-eat some kind of foods
-groceries
-clean my actual room
-work on my icons for gic
-at least begin my take home test for entrepreneurship (which takes like 2.5 hrs apparently)
tomorrow:
-clean the bathroom
-finish the take home test
-work on printmaking
-run
over break:
-finish this damn portfolio!
-finish icons for gic and make them badass
Suhweet. Lists make me feel so much better.
yeah. printmaking. im sooo far behind. it sucks because i really do like my project, its just really far more time consuming than usual. im making 22 tarot cards and i've only got 5 of them totally done. i think its because each one involves me drawing a woodland creature of some sort, and im so slow with the drawing biz. it was nice though cause last night i got to sit around and draw with jared and dustin. being around people and talking while you do this illustration biz makes it all go by so much faster.
but yeah, its now sunday and i havent touched my portfolio or bleitz's stuff. im gonna work on bleitz's stuff today because i finally have an idea of what im going to to. i have so much to do today and tomorrow, its not even funny. and tomorrow i have a stupid appointment, just one more thing that i dont have time for.
ah well, in the end i think i can kill myself this week so that i can truly enjoy spring break and feel like i have nothing lingering over my head. thats the short-term goal for now. and if i could get my portfolio actually made, that would just be really nice. i still feel like such a crapface for not even submitting it yet because its still not DONE. half of me doesnt even want to submit because i dont want to work for any of the visiting companies, and because im afraid i wont see my name on the list for interviews. uuugh. im such an underachiever. i need to learn how to take a hit.
just when i feel like my life sucks and i start getting stressed out... this slaps me in the face.
dno how it works, but its now my new homepage :)
my room, which is usually so hot and filled with dead air, now finally has a nice breeze in it. i love sleeping with the window partially open when it rains, there is seriously nothing more soothing. im pretty sure tonight ill get the best sleep of my life.
what i dont like, is writing papers. i was a dumbass and wrote the EDC paper on the Education Development Center insdead of the Economic Development Center, for my Entrepreneur class so here I am rewriting it like an idiot.
i should be doing my printmaking homework. i cant tell if im going to go to class tomorrow. patrick wont be there, but he threatened to call the glenn labs from orlando and if im not there, that will be three absences, already. i need to stop slackin. if anything i guess ill bring my laptop. it wont be that bad. i did want to get some sun though, i forgot how much happier it makes me when i get an hour to just lay outside.
once again though, i fell asleep at like 6 o clock, right after i ate some delicious soup + a bread bowl from panera. sumo wrestlers gorge themselves before going to sleep so they gain weight aka i need to stop doing that. the lame thing is that i cant work out until i find my card key to get into the gym/pool area. and the only way i can get a new one is if i pay the freaking $50 and pay with a personal check (which i left at home). so yeah, awesome.
but yea, i woke up at like 9. apparently i can only take 3 hour naps, no less. lovely. then i watched ghost world and forgot how much i loved it. it makes me want to have a hardcore collecting-of-obscure-things hobby, like Seymour. it also really made me miss how in high school, i could entertain myself for hours during the week in my room without tv or internet. just cds and reading and drawing. i miss those days. i think when i graduate this summer, if i can, i will take a computer hiatus for as long as possible. just because.
also, im gonna be a ricebunny for a minute and just say how much i love this clarisonic thing my mom got me for xmas.theres a better pic here.i use it in the shower when i wake up and sometimes before i go to bed and my face seriously feels like a pillow. and i havent broken out in forever which is awesome.
but yea anyways. this weekend is going to be somethin else. i need to crank down and get my shit done, hopefully before weds (eventhough mostly everything is due thurs+fri) for when my family arrives. and then my bday is sun the 17th and i will most likely be celebrating the sat before. and ideally, i dont wanna have that much homework that weekend. actually, im going to go attempt to accomplish that goal now. peaceout.
